Oct 14 Funk, Be Gone!

I’m in a funk.

There, I said it.

The first step is acknowledgement, right?

I am stressed about work.  This past week, a few things happened that were extremely frustrating, upsetting, not fair…Yes, I know life is not fair but still.  I do not want to dwell, because it is all out of my control, but I’m having a hard time with acceptance.  I’ll get there but sometimes things just plain suck. ( Sorry so cryptic).

I’m not sure why my POTS symptoms are acting up; especially the one that makes my legs and feet swell and look like blueberries.  The only thing I can think of is the cold I am fighting mixed with the stress I am feeling mixed with the weather changes are causing my blood to pool and my POTS to flare.

This gloomy weather is not helping.  A little sunshine would go a long way.  I think it’s time to break out my sun lamp.

When Brad comes home stressed or upset about something, I always make him give me a list of 5 positives in his life.  I am a firm believer that when times get tough, it is so important to focus on the blessings we do have.

So here it goes. It’s time to practice what I preach.  It’s time to turn this mood around. It’s time to get my head on straight.

It’s time for me to choose the positive.

1.  My support system is amazing.  I don’t know another word for it.  I never feel alone, and that in itself is something that is worthy of waking up everyday and thanking my lucky stars that I have people in my life who always, always have my back.  That includes my incredible family, friends, and all of you.

2.  I am able to work in a job that I love, despite the fact that blood may be pooling in my legs.  I am able to exercise to make my legs stronger.  I have a medical team that will help me figure out the many confusing parts that EDS and Dysautonomia often bring.  I do not have to do it by myself.

3.  I am doing something I am so passionate about, by planning this benefit with an incredible team of people. I am meeting so many inspirational people; people who I would have never met if I had not gotten sick.

I’m starting to see a theme as I type…the beautiful relationships in my life.  That is what it’s all about at the end of the day, right?

4.  I get to see my family in 5 days at my cousin’s wedding.  If anyone is able to de-funk me, it is these people.  I can’t wait to laugh until it hurts, and celebrate with my Mom’s side of the family.  Best birthday present ever.

5.  I have my GOOD health.

And when all else fails, there is always Prozac and retail therapy 😉

It’s time to smile.

It’s time to shine.