It’s hard to see a loved one hurt.

It’s hard to watch one of your husband’s best friends be laid to rest at the age of 35.

It’s hard to understand why.

But, maybe that is not for us to understand.

It’s been two days of being back to reality.

Thank you to everyone who reached out this week.  It means a lot.  The week has been a tough one, I’m not gonna lie.  After my heating pad caught on fire last night, it was the final straw that sent me into a frazzled, overwhelmed mess. 

Heating Pad.

Ice.

All I have to say is that at this point, planning a family, knowing I have EDS and POTS, is a very personal, sacred, and difficult decision…